Honestly

*SIGH*

I am choosing to praise! Its not easy….but I need to.

I am thankful first and foremost to serve a loving and all-knowing God. I am thankful for my children who even now are sleeping through the storm. I am thankful for a vigilant husband, who has his alarm set to check everything, every hour. I am thankful for the past flood, that gave us wisdom in how to prepare. I am thankful we can process what is happening and be rational. I am thankful to be awake, so I can focus on my Lord, instead of the storm. I am thankful there are people who aren’t getting the rain. I am thankful for being able to pick lima beans at midnight. I am thankful for children who remind me of things that are important to them. I am thankful for shelter from the storm. I am thankful for peace. I  am thankful for prayer warriors. I am thankful for safety. I am thankful for meteorologists. I am thankful for the ability to write this. I am thankful for these things that allow me to draw closer to my God. I am thankful this isn’t common. I am thankful we don’t have a rainy season. I am thankful for being able to make it home from my errands without trouble. I am thankful I can cry. I am thankful for advice from friends that we notched away for such an occasion. I am thankful there are people who can empathize with us.

Tonight I choose to praise. I am not diminishing the fact that I am scared, nervous, worried, frustrated, sleepy, weary, etc. Anyone who is aware of what we have been through understands this. But tonight, since I am awake, I have two choices, to get caught in the wave of negative thoughts and emotions, or to challenge myself to see God in this and praise Him.

“And I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm”

-Casting Crowns-Praise You in the Storm

So tonight as I try something new, I thank you if you have been lead by the Holy Spirit to pray for us. Prayers carry us further then you can imagine. But please keep in mind, if you sincerely want to know how I am doing, and if I tell you fine, call my bluff. Its situations like this where I can put on a mask, not intentionally, but its human nature. Thank you for following us on this journey. And please help us find Praise in the storm.

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2 thoughts on “Honestly

  1. I was praying for you before I read this – as we drove through pouring rain last night. We were at a memorial services in York.

  2. ntebersole says:

    I too have been praying! Passed on the request to the travelers too. Love your praises and honesty in the midst of this unsettling time. I will be happy to have the children come here if that would be a good thing. Love to you all.

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